this year

2008...

Where did you begin 2008?
eve bay

Who were you with?
kyle bennett, a few other boys, kallam being wild and out of control


Did you kiss anyone at midnight?
nope, my boyfriend at the time was doing lines in a port-a-loo =)

"ahh babe, there was no countdown, soz"

Did you make any resolutions?
guess so..
have i even came close to completing them?
no way


Were you in school anytime this year?
nah college

Did you have to go to the hospital?
yes

Did you have any encounters with the police?
no not this year

Where did you go on vacation?
the bay, bali, sydney

Did you know anyone who got married?
nope

Did you know anybody who passed away?
my mum basically

What sporting events did you attend/watch?
nahhh

Describe your birthday:
8teen.
i went to college.
i went to dance.
i went to dinner.
i got heaps of presents.
i was with my favourite males.
that week i celebrated with other family members and other friends.
it was okay.



What is one thing you thought you would not do, but did, in 2008?
be hurt


What has been your favorite moments?
bdo, easter show, lovely nights in with the boyfriend, christmas eve/matts 20th was pretty fun, the races, fat as butter (hahah), recieving my tiffany and co shiz

Any new additions to your family?
no

What was your best month?
november the 2nd - till like boxing day

Favorite Night out?
last wednesday , xmas eve/mattys bday @ fannys and friday night / boxing day races @ kingy

Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?
the beach, matty&kallams house, college, the gym.


Have you lost any friends this year?
One. Maybe two. But they become ‘lost’ for a reason.


Change your hairstyle?
a few colour changes throughout the year, no dramatic changes

Do you have a New Years resolution
to be stronger, to be braver, to be happy

Do anything embarrassing?
Understatement...


Get married or divorced?
basically divorced


Are you happy to see 2008 go?
Yes. i cant wait to see you go!




2008 Your Love Life....

What was your status by Valentines Day?
In a relationship

Did you have a valentine?
Yes.


Did you get anything for Valentine's day?
circus tickets, dinner, i forget the rest but a really sweet day!


Did you meet anyone?
Sure.


Did you fall in love?
"out of love"

Are you still in love?
we love each other forever but differently, its unconditional love, that no one will understand. were best friends, no matter whose in my life




2008 Friends and Enemies......

Did you meet any new friends this year?
Yes

Did any of your friendships end?
Kind of

Did you dislike anyone?
Yes

Did you get into any fights?
Nothing major.


Did you make any new enemies?
haha my class had its challenges.

Who did you grow apart from?
alot of girls.
alot of boys as well.


Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
no not really.



2008.....All about YOU....

Did you change at all this year?
yes

Did you dye your hair?
many times

Did you get your hair cut?
about 4 times

Did you get good grades?
yess


Did you have a job?
Yeah 2

Did you leave the country at all?
Yes i went to Bali

Would you change anything about yourself now?
Be Stronger





2008.....Wrap Up.


Was 2008 a good year?
It had its ups and downs.
mostly downs.


What would you change about the year?
the fights, the heartbreak, the hurt, the mother, the step mother, the sisters.

Did 2008 bring any new insights?
yes dont trust anyone, people dont change, people will always step on u if you let them. dont believe everything and stay close to the ones you love.


Do you think 2009 will top 2008?
Yes please

If you could forget any moment what would it be?
A few come to mind.
A lot of pain.


Do you wish 2008 wouldn't end?
No.
I’m keen for a new year
KEEN KEEN

Do you plan to do anything special for NYE 2009?
no




2009...

Will you get contacts?
maybe some more green ones


Who will you be spending New Years Eve with?
nick

Will you leave the country?
yes


Are you excited for your birthday next year?
19 sounds old


Are you going to be moving out next year?
Very doubtful, but maybe

Will you have a job?
yeh?

Will you be finishing school?
maybe starting uni?


What are you looking forward to most in 2009?
BDO, annual bali, new job, having my licence and being legal all summer long, valentines day, new moon movie, having a loving boyfriend, spending as much time with my dad as possible

Are you excited for next year?
bring it on!

4 days ago

was my first day without you.
i went to the races got fucked up, came home and did shots with your bro, my uncle and 2 girlies.
then we went to king st.
i had a good time until i got my drink spiked and i spewed all night.
hmmm.
i didnt see a horse all day.
i danced more than i talked.
and drank more than i walked.
heres what the day looked like.

why?

why arent i with you?
i bet that you aren't even thinking of me.
i miss you so much.
i just want to climb in your window just like joey does to Dawson.
i havent spent a new years without u ever since we've known each other.
i need my best friend.
its so lonely here.
i hate sleeping alone.
ive been drinking soo much lately.
im an ABSOLUT wreck.
you have no idea what you mean to me.
i never knew how much you meant to me.
i love you.
plain and simple.

wasted @ neverland with you.
youre such a douche.
this pics on their site.
http://www.inthemix.com.au/photos24/081213-Nevereverland/acy
how embarrassing.


come home, its been 5 nights already, i dont think i could do another 3.

"youre my John C. Reilly and im your Will Ferrell"

awww youre the cutest.
i cant wait to shake and bake with you at big day out.
just fucking come home!

2008

Staye​d singl​e almos​t the whole​ year?​​
yes

Kisse​d some one new?
2

Done somet​hing you'​​ve regre​tted?​​
yes

Lost someo​ne?​​
yes
​
Were invol​ved with someo​ne you'​​ll never​ forge​t?​​
no

Visit​ed a diffe​rent count​ry?​​
yes

Lost somet​hing impor​tant to you?
yes

Got a gift you adore​?​​
yes


Tripp​ed over a coffe​e table​?​​
most probably

Dyed your hair?​​
yes

Came close​ to losin​g your life?​​
yes

Went to a party​?​
yes

Read a great​ book?​​
4

Saw one of your favou​rite bands​/​​artis​ts live?​​
yes

Did you meet any new frien​ds this year?​​
yes
adi tuck, my lover♥

Did you disli​ke anyon​e?​​
yes

Did you grow apart​ from anyon​e?​​
many


Do you have any regre​ts when it comes​ to your frien​dship​s?​​
no


2008:​​ ​Birthday:

Did you have a cake?​​
no

Did you have a party​?​​
few family gatherings

Did you get any prese​nts?​​
yess

2008:​​​​​ All about​ YOU:

Did you chang​e at all this year?​​
yes

Did you get your hair cut?
yes

Did you chang​e your style​?​​
not really


Were you in schoo​l?​​
NO


Did you get good grade​s?​​
yes

Did you have a job?
yes


Did you drive​?​​
yes

Did you own a car?
got given one

Did anyon​e close​ to you give birth​?​​
my cousin

Did you move at all?
no

Did you go on any vacat​ions?​​
yes

Would​ you chang​e anyth​ing about​ yours​elf now?
yes, stop drinking

2008:​​ Wrap UP:

Was 2008 a good year?​​
average

Do you think​ 2009 will top 2008?​​
defintely

I confe​ss that in 2008 I...

(NO)​staye​d singl​e for the whole​ year

(NO) kisse​d in the snow?

(NO) celeb​rated​ Hallo​ween

(YES) had your heart​broke​n


(NO) moone​d someo​ne

(YES) went over the minut​es on your cell phone​


(NO) someo​ne quest​ioned​ your sexua​l orien​tatio​n

(NO) came out of the close​t

(NO) gotte​n pregn​ant

(NO) had an abort​ion

(YES) done somet​hing you'​​ve regre​tted

(YES) paint​ed a pictu​re

(YES) wrote​ a poem

(YES) ran a mile

(NO) shopp​ed at Holli​ster or Aberc​rombi​e and Fitch​?

(YES) poste​d a blog on MySpa​ce?

(YES) visit​ed a forei​gn count​ry

(YES) cut in a line of waiti​ng peopl​e

(YES) told someo​ne you were busy when you weren​'​​t

(no it was shit) parti​ed to celeb​rate the new year

(YES) cooke​d a disas​t​rous meal

(NO) lied about​ how old you were

(NO) prank​ calle​d someo​ne


In 2008 I...

[YES] ​broke​ a promi​se

[guess so] fell out of love

[YES] lied

[YES] cried​ over a broke​n/​​hurt heart​

[YES] disap​point​ed someo​ne close​

[YES] hid a secre​t

[NO] prete​nded to be happy​

[NO] slept​ under​ the stars​

[NO] kept your new years​ resol​ution​

[YES] forgo​t your new years​ resol​ution​

[no] met someo​ne who chang​ed your life

[NO] met one of your idols​

[yes] chang​ed your outlo​ok on life

[YES] sat home all day doing​ nothi​ng

[NO] prete​nded to be sick

[yes] left the count​ry

[yes] given​ up on somet​hing/​​someo​ne impor​tant to you

[yes] lost somet​hing expen​sive

[YES] learn​ed somet​hing new about​ yours​elf

[yes] tried​ somet​hing you norma​lly would​n'​​t try and liked​ it

[YES] made a chang​e in your life

[YES] found​ out who your true frien​ds were

[YES] met great​ peopl​e

[YES] staye​d up til sunri​se

[yes] cried​ over the silli​est thing​

[YES] had frien​ds who were drift​ing away from you

[yesssssssssssss] had a high cell phone​ bill

[no] spent​ most of your money​ on food

[best dream last night haha] had a fist fight​

[yes!!] went to the beach​ with your best frien​d(​​s)​​

[YES] gotte​n sick

[NO] liked​ more than 2 peopl​e at the same time

[YES] becam​e close​r with a lot of peopl​e

ccchek it out

new head peice
sportsgirl special only $7.95

loving it.

its santa eve and my best friends 20th birthday.

shit weather!!

the fear

I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don’t care about clever I don’t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and f***loads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them

I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
‘Cuz everyone knows that’s how you get famous
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner

I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear

Life’s about film stars and less about mothers
It’s all about fast cars and passing each other
But it doesn’t matter cause I’m packing plastic
and that’s what makes my life so f***ing fantastic

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
and its not my fault it’s how I’m program to function
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner

Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I’m killing them all on my own little mission
Now I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner
Now everything is cool as long as I’m getting thinner

fuck

i want this


i am this

i dont love you anymore

i think this would make me happy

really

Really not a fan of this alone shit

santa came early

got this little sucker today,
its sooo loud.
i was like do they come in any colours,
hes like sadly no!!!
but its cute.
it was only.....$34 !
woooo!


on a sad note,, my dads leavin today.
for 3 wweeks.
im guna be home alone!
this is what i whipped up for him just last minute



it reads.
"my dad, my hero!!
you go out of your way every
single day to make my life easier!"

"you have no idea how much i love and
appreaciate you!
Love always Kim"


pictures are from grad which went well.
it ended up in town, i didnt slep till about 7 am
here are some photos from the night...

unsure

no idea about anything anymore.
anyone, next year, myself.
nothing.

your call

NEVERLAND

on saturday i went to neverland
i went, i saw , i got fucked up. (to say atleast)
klaxons were fairly amazing.





I really like this photo, reminds me of summer love.


i really want to go to the gym today, my graduations on wednesday and would like my colar bones and ribs to show a little more, im insane i know this.!



some elephant love, because why not?
at least theyre gettin some loving.


I want to dress as a disney princess everyday of my life, is this okay with you and damn society?






I'm lost and I'm tormenting myself.
why do i constantly live in the past, why arent I letting go?
is it ok to stay holding on for hope when its denied everyday.



will i be alone on christmas night because i want to spend as much time with u as possible before u leave ?
will i be alone on nye or with people i dont want to be with , because you dont want to show people we are best friends?
are u okay about denying me infront of people.



whats goin to happen?
whats going to play out?

I remember xmas day 2005.
me and my 2 sisters and
we walked down with 3 bottles of champagne to the beach.
i remember coming home and cryng to freaking "stick with you" by the pussycat dolls lol.
3 years ago, and ill prob be alone, in front of the tv, a bottle of wine watching carols on tv.
ps. i smoke now.
the thing i was more than against.
chainsmoking all saturday.
matt was so disapointed but did i care?



hmmmmmmmmmm


lyrics that really describe how i feel even though i dont normally listen to music such as this...

Baby, baby
When we first met
I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover
And my best friend
All wrapped into one
With a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden
you went and left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shock
That spun me around
And now my heart's dead
I feel so empty and hollow

[Pre Chorus:]
And I'll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don't even recognize
The ways you hurt me
Do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame

[Chorus:]
And now I feel like, oh
You're the reason
Why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on
These cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get
For wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
Cause now I'm using like I bleed
It's like I checked into rehab
Baby you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
Baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

[Verse 2:]
Damn,
Ain't it crazy
When you're loveswept
You'll do anything
For the one you love
'Cause anytime
That you needed me
I'd be there
It's like
You were my favorite drug
The only problem is
That you was using me
In a different way
That I was using you
But now that I know
That it's not meant to be
You gotta go
I gotta wean myself off of you

All I want for christmas

Channing Tatum


Wentworth Miller



this twiglith inspired necklace

this awesome shirt

this cute little thing

i made sushi this arvo

this is what it looks like at 11pm
sweet hello kitty lunch box hey

sweet bathtime

a)

b)

c)
d)


=

a) sweet head
b) sweet brusied/swollen knee
c)sweet spa bath w/ fountain tap
d) sweet tan line

pretty soon

sOz LuV

sorry for being a bitch and never acknowledging you
sorry for denying you
sorry for lying
sorry for cheating
ooops

Its getting better

My house smells like =
and i like it like that.

My tattoo is fully healed =


and i like it like that.
no more itchyness or creaming it 7 times a day.

I will be here=

and Im very happy about that
cant freaking wait!

I watched =
on sunday and it was nice, only thing missing is my own landon.


I cant wait for the new year and what it shall bring.
tomorrow i have a job interview for some marketing company in darby street, it sounds lovely!
they rang this morning and i only applied last night and they were like one last question are you 18 ? and im like YES YES YES I AM! lol i think they heard my smile through the phone.


2009 bring it on baby,
currently listening to system of a down, haha
fuck yeah feeling the greatest apart from doing my budget report for my last assignment ever!


I know who I want, what i want, and where i want to be.
lets just hope 2009 brings it,
eliminating all the shit people in my life,
WOOO!

today, 23 days till xmas

wow
did i have a strange day.
woke up at 730.
i made a pphone call at 11 to an old friend.
by 2.30 i was exhausted.
timeflew by.
i came home and scrapbooked a calendar.
i came across the cutest thing ive read in months.
it literally made my day.
mwah.





23 days left, where are you?
i wanna spend it with you too.
come find me again okay.

heartbreak

broken heart (or heartbreak) is a common metaphor used to describe the intense emotional pain or suffering one feels after losing a loved one, through death, divorce, moving, being dumped, or other means. It is an extremely old and widespread metaphor, dating to at least the Indian Ramayana writings (400 BC - 200 AD).^[1]

Heartbreak is usually associated with losing a spouse or loved one, though losing a parent, child, pet, or close friend can also "break one's heart". The phrase refers to the physical pain one may feel in the chest as a result of the loss. Although "heartbreak" is usually a metaphor, there is a condition -- appropriately known as Broken Heart Syndrome -- where a traumatizing incident triggers the brain to distribute chemicals that weaken heart tissue.^[2]

The symptoms of a "broken heart" can manifest themselves through psychological pain but for many the effect is physical. Although the experience is regarded commonly as indescribable, the following is a list of common symptoms that occur:

• A perceived tightness of the chest, similar to an anxiety attack
• Stomach ache and/or loss of appetite
• Partial or complete insomnia
• Anger
• Shock
• Nostalgia
• Apathy (loss of interest)
• Feelings of loneliness
• Feelings of hopelessness and despair
• Loss of self-respect and/or self-esteem
• Medical or psychological illness (for example depression)
• Suicidal thoughts (in extreme cases)
• Nausea
• Denial
• Fatigue
• The thousand-yard stare
• Constant or frequent crying
• A feeling of complete emptiness

i hate missing you!