happy 21st baby

happy 21st my special man,
i love you forever,
i really do.

your no longer the one who got away

"i no longer classify you as the one that got away because everyone knows im the one who let you go"

chalkboard paint , love.



chalkboard paint on this mug, super cute.


glitter chipboard love.

xoxox

beautiful ink

beautiful ink on a beautiful boy

i think i fucked it up because i asked about a photo.
yeah it got over the top but a little problem could of been fixed.
im so sick of the un balance.
hope u know i screamed my lungs out all the way home.
hope u know i wanted to never stop driving and kept on thinking i had nothing to loose.
i give u too many chances and its killing me.
i know i have nothing to loose.
it sucks cause i wanted to call someone so bad and i only wanted to talk to u.
i even brought a dress for tomorrow.
i Rushed from work got thre 5 minutes before close just so i could be pretty for u 2moro.
its my fault i should learn not to say anything or just wait up for u all the time.
but im not that girl. i shouldnt ever be that girl. but i am
and i HAVE NOTHING TO LOOSE.




(4 years ago :(, words can not describe how much i hate this)

busy busy day

had a day off, wish i could of slept in but of course not - things needed to be done.
i spent the first few hours of my day with my boyfriends dad going through hundreds of photos , picking them for matts 21st slide show i need to make before friday (keep in mind today was my last day off before the event that i actually dont have any appointments or plans) .
so after i finished , i went to the bank, then got myself a nice ham and cheese danish from bakers delight, was yummy then back home to ring up cake places, then off to lambton to try find and pick the cake, paid for the deposit.. it really i lovely .. their site is..http://www.europatisserie.com.au/ check it out, their cakes are gorgeous! so after that off to spotlight, i dropped into home for about 10mins, so spotlight.. i got some balloon bouquets, did you ever know there was such a thing? balloon bouquets, seriously whats next? i got BLACK SILVER PURPLE and some 21 thing hopefully it will look good, haha soo after that i checked out their paper plate stash, was horrible and over priced but did find some cute PURPLE napkins for $1 in the bargain bin! i always find stuff in there..went to "shindigs" at broadmedow but after walking in, looking at prices i walked back out haha so then off to kotara got some SILVER plates, then went to waratah again got some spoons and sporks then went home got some gym stuff then off the gym i went, im nackered! probably left out a million things but u can imagine how busy i was! so sick of driving.. so heres a few questions.. cooking a roast chicken tonight :)
sooooooooooo tired!

1.What is one thing that will put a great big ole smile on your face?


cuddles on a sunday morning.
waking up being held.

2.You're walking down the street toward a very familiar face. As you get closer you realize you do not remember this persons name at all. Do you speak with the chance that they'll want to stop and chat or do you pretend that you don't see the person?

smile and keep walking

3. Are you the Rock or the sponge of your household?

Every woman is a Rock until proven otherwise ;)

4. You have gone over to a friends for dinner. You look down at your plate and notice a great big ole hair hanging out from inside your sandwich. What do you do ?

no never happened, if it did i guess id just pull it off and hope for the best haha

5. If you HAD to name one....who would you say is your role model?

There are no role models actually, we are all just people with our virtues and flaws. Maybe if I take one or two things from each member of my family or famous women that still have some dignity and still keep grounded.

6. Have you raised children? if so do you think your parenting skills were top notch or could have used a little help from Dr Phil?
nope havent but always helping out

my dad raise my little 8 yr old sisters.

7. Would your -(Past or present)- mate/spouse, significant other/whatever -say that living with you has been like a gentle breeze or more like a hurricane?

In theory it should be both, good days and bad days take turns...we should be able to learn from both.

I moved out 3 weeks ago but sleep there 5/7 nights a week.

It was good in ways but i think it would have been "funner" if we didnt.

8. When you shop at the grocery store, do you always shop exactly by a list or just go helter skelter and hope that you get home with most of what you need?

start with a list. then just give up..

and go "helter skelter"

9. Do you have a tattoo...?? if so What and where is it?? if not do you have a secret desire to have one?
yes, its my middl e nme ayu = javanese for beautiful above my ankle. and yes i have desires for more

10. You have been offered a free botox treatment...where do you have them put it?

forehead?

11. Do you have a good luck charm? what is it?
Do you think it works?

no no no

12. When was the last time that you said something to someone that you REALLY wished you hadn't said?

Don't really remember. but probably everyday

13. The bath water is running, the phone is ringing, the dog is barking and there is someone at the door.....what do you do?

ignore everything else, maybe ansdwer phone when i finally get in the bath if its still ringing


14. Your best friend from high school just popped in from out of town. do you offer them a place to stay or suggest a hotel?

see her nearly everyday i have off. so this wouldnt happen, but the others i wouldnt.
they can drop off the face of earth a little more if they please

15. Have you ever seen a ghost?

yes.

16. Someone is driving in front of you rather erratically and slowing you way down...now you see that they are talking on a cell phone and checking themselves out in the mirror. The other lane is blocked off so you can not go around them. What do you do??

Depends on how fast I wanna get somewhere. Am I late? How was my day so far? If I had a crappy day, (s)he better watch himself/herself.

lol.




i think i really need tooo.... just....



♥ xoxox

Q'z

few questions&answers for today..

Do you want to see the movie Paranormal Activity? no
First and middle name please? kimberly ayu qantas

What will you be doing this Saturday?

working :(

Will you be involved in any athletic activities tomorrow?

im due for a gym sesh so i'd say so

Are you scared about the future?

yess and no

Do you feel like your life is flying by?

yes

When you say you don't care do you mean it?

sometimes.

Have you seen your bestfriend naked?

practically

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?

yes and no

Who was your last text from?

my boy

Would you rather sleep for 3 days, or stay awake for 3 days?

stay sleeping!!

Out of all your school years, which was best?

yr 6, 8 and 10?

What was the last "thing" you got mad at? something :(

Are you happpy? content

Do you prefer water slides or roller coasters? s lides esp. waterbomb park in bali. GIZ

Would you rather have a small dog or a big dog?

HUGE

What really annoys you about girls?

lots. i really dont like females

Your phone rings, it's the person you fell hardest for, what do you say?

hey baby.

Would you get into a car with someone who was drunk if it was your only way home?

have done

Would you dye your hair funny colors for $1,000 dollars?

i do it weekly anyways.

Do you miss the past?

yes not all though


Are you of legal drinking age?

yup. its no fun now

Are you sober?

yes.

Is there anyone you trust 100%?

no. do u? honestly?


What time do you usually go to sleep at night?

11ish

Do you enjoy going to school?

finished.

Can you sleep without blankets covering you?

yes.

What's irritating you right now?

last msg i received from someone

Think of the last person who you said I love you to, did you mean it?

thinking so

What color are your eyes?

brown.

Is your natural hair curly or straight?

kinky wavy

In the past week have you smiled?

yes

Can't wait for?

holidays

Ever had your heart broken? And does it still hurt you?

yes and yes every day

What woke you up this morning?

me

Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?

one.

Did anyone see your last kiss? nope

Would you be surprised if your parents had another baby together? THEY WOULD KILL EACHOTHER BEFORE COMING CLOSE ENOUGH TO HEAR EACH OTHER! let alone touch each other

Would you rather go to Canada or California on vacation? Canada

What was the last thing you drank? water

When was the last time you saw your father? last night. he rings me constantly though. love that man~

Have any memories that you’d like to forget? of course

Is there someone you really like to hang out with and just talk about stuff? YES!

Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed? yeah :( more then 5yrs ago.

wow ♥

Were you single on Valentines Day? yes.

Next vacation you’re going on?BYRON BAY! BABY!

Did you sleep alone saturday night? nope, drunk cuddles =)

Do you think the last person you kissed cares for you? to an extent

Have you ever done something that was really bad for yourself? probably everyday

You have to get a piercing, what do you get? maybe septum again or side of my nose or maybe ears again?

not sure ??

Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past three months? yes.

vent

wednesday, mid-week.
im at work, theres nothing to do ..
that i can remember haha.
3rd nights sleep' last night at the new pad, don't think im going to let it feel like "home"
i think i need to find a new place already..
which is such a stress, considering all the stress i went through.. going from matts to dads then moving all my stuff out of matts.
talking about matts.. apparently according to zeee brother, i stopped talking to him. which is not true, i think he's the one who ssstarted snorting and snarling at me until i moved out.
Im so confusedd because we used to be soo close, yeah i admit a little too close for a girlfriend to be with her boyfriends brother but we were family, and after 5 years we couldnt help it, and living together let us spend a huge amount of time together. we've defintely always had our ups and downs but i cant believe he told matt that i started it, esp when he used to write horrible things about me on his facebook.
anyways thats something i shouldnt be thinking of, well its hard to when i go and see matt but fuck, i dont know how to feel or how to go around things, they are brothers for god's sake.

anyways thats my vent today.
u should of heard me last night.
really unimpressed with coming home to see something.
aw well i chose to move in with randoms, what was i expecting? respect? the truth?

OBVIOUSLY NOT!

duck sauce

i love this song..
Time after time I told myself I’ve got nothing to lose
Time after time I told myself I’ve got nothing to lose
Time after time I told myself I’ve got nothing to lose

Time after time I check just to make sure
I can do it anyway that you want it
I can do it anyway that you want it
I can do it anyway that you want it

Time after time I told myself I’ve got nothing to lose
Time after time I told myself I’ve got nothing to lose
Time after time I told myself I’ve got nothing to lose

Time after time I check just to make sure
I can do it anyway that you want it
I can do it anyway that you want it
I can do it anyway that you want it


by Duck Sauce haha

fingers&heartstrings crossed

fingers&heartstrings crossed..that this time next year we are picking out a tree together, decorating pretty and then laying next to it with some beers together.
i really hope were living together again without any piggy pig pigs.
i really hope we have a place to call 'home' that doesnt include your brother, his crazy girlfriends, your 84yr old dog and the other bad things.

xox

over it

trying to put things together as in storage thing etc , really over it.
i dont understand step by step instructions at all.
anyways things (a few quotes) that are taking my mind of all the mess are the following:

i want one ^^

cool crazy japanese art on styrofoam cups.. uhmm how COOL!

amazing font

hahhahahaha

always wanted one but more so now since i live so close to everything
i wish i could do this! ^

pretty hey?
beautiful crazy art

kate moss, need i say more?
haha

90210, lovely show haha
smoking ballerinas, how funny
HA!

this jacked is awesome!^
hahaha

so cute, cant what for the S.O to move out with me.


a burger cake haha
a little e-invite i mocked up for matts.
the real ones were better!
i used the sassafrass montsers haha
simple life haha
i watched it this morning, sooo funny.
nicole richie is priceless



well "over and out" im waitin for amy to get here , were gettin lunch and swimming, xox